Well, well, well...

Sigh

.....

Its gonna have to be this way, isn't it?

I'm going to have to exercise. No other way around it.

I hate exercising. I like it on a whim, but I can't just go and do it all the time. Its like work thats too easy to call off from. Seriously.

The only way I am gonna be able to get back into a serious exercise routine is by going back to derby, and with my fire dancing classes. I have to enjoy it, and I am sorry, but going to a gym and mindlessly walking on a treadmill is just not going to do it for me.

I get bored way too easily.

Thank you, ADD.

So we will see where it goes from here. I was gonna wait until bout season was over to go back to my derby girls, but if I don't have to, then heck yeah.

My poor tailbone is gonna kill me in the end.

But its worth it.

Argh!

Exercise, you are a mean, mean thing. Why must you dominate my success?

Prepping ahead is not so hard. Its actually WANTING to eat what you have made that usually stands in my way. Boy, chinese food sounds great...or I can eat this fish I made two days ago thats sitting in the fridge.

Trouble is, if I DONT make it ahead of time, then I get lazy and just dont feel like cooking, therefore eating whatever is available then and now. Im sure we have all done this.

Any insight as to how to beat this would be greatly appreciated.

So far, I seem to do best while I am at work. I am on a regime, and I can eat what I brought and sidestep those vending machines full of hate. That and I avoid carrying cash around most of the time.

Its when I get home in the evening and have to cook dinner for the whole family that I fall short. I don't WANNA sit there with broiled fish and brown rice while everyone else gets tacos. But I have to. I have the problem, not them.

Again, any insight to this would help.

I've had a few setbacks but remain diligent in my effort to eat healthy and drop these remaining lbs. I had to cancel an appointment with a plastic surgeon due to the nazi's I work for changing everyones schedule and taking away my Thursdays off. I wasnt too thrilled with the office staff, anyway. I need to find one who is going to help me, not be a snot about it.

I know there are many of you out there battling the Sugar Slut. She has kicked my ass a lot lately. Truthfully, I love to trick her with SF chocolate and such, but the pain associated with sugar free candy and the result it gives you is by far worse than just eating the real thing. Most of you know what I mean...and it seems I do it every time I go to the movies. Haven't been able to sit through one movie in a few years due to my overindulgence in SF Russell Stovers during the previews...I end up running to the loo halfway through the movie, and missing stuff...and the movie theater bathroom is huge and echoey, so not the greatest place to have that problem, either.

I am currently cooking up a batch of Italian Chicken...but this time I am using my crock pot. Seeing how that works out. As some of you know this past week I lost my dear Hamilton Beach Grill with removable plates...it was my life, and I have been mourning ever since. Unfortunately a replacement is going to run me about $80, so that will hopefully be a birthday present because I certainly cannot afford it.

Everyone let me know how you are doing whether its good or bad, etc...feedback is a great thing.

Any recipes to share? Tips? Tricks? Let us know!

Post here or email me at linlin1@cbgb.net

site of the week...read if you are hungry.

http://interstice.com/~max/disgusting.html

Im not dead!

After a short hiatus after my trip, I am ready to balance myself out again and start feeling better. Everything went according to plan for my trip, I had the best time, and I am ready to move forward. However, which direction I go in is another story.

Any of you ever have something planned in your head for months that just works out almost exactly the way you saw it? I did. And thats all I'm saying.

Ahem.

So, back to the drawing board. I've pretty much been eating whatever, so I am ready to go back to my first love, Mr. Thurmond. I am right now off to the store to get the needed supplies to start...

so...here we go again!

And in lieu of the usual picture I post with a blog, here is an amusing bit...

http://www.bannedinhollywood.com/12-signs-you-need-to-go-on-a-diet/

Good morning, comrades. A dear friend pointed out to me that I have been slacking terribly
at my duties of blog posting, so here I am.

Things haven't been very good. We've had a nasty bout of sickness here in the family, and some crankiness as a result, making the past few weeks an almost absolute living hell.
I've pretty much stuck to what I was supposed to, although on day 1 I realized there is NO WAY I am going to be able to do protein shakes only. Huh-uh. I need solidarity. So I went and purchased some beef jerky.
I know what you're thinking, oh, SODIUM!!!
I take water pills and drink over a gallon on water a day. Jerky won't touch me, sistahs.
I've been eating a bad thing or two here or there, but haven't suffered as a result.
I have my pill martinis every day and they do me a lot of good.
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Getting MUY EXCITIDO to get to next weekend, when I get to leave town and go home to MD. I get to see all my girls, whom I miss SOO MUCH...get good old Irish drunk, and stagger through downtown Cumberland, just like the good ole days. SO EXCITED! I am also driving to Baltimore to pick up my girl and her puppy, whom I haven't seen in YEARS, (my friend, not her puppy) and I am SUPER CHARGED excited about that.
How is everyone doing? Comment and let me know how your few weeks have gone. Sorry I was MIA, but when you are just about ready to take off your own head, blogging is pretty much the last thing on your mind!

Love you guys!

Spending a little time on hiatus...my body, bottom line, isn't getting enough iron and protein to maintain. I ordered my favorite protein shakes online, and am waiting for them to arrive so I can start my liquid, all protein shake diet. I know this sounds nuts...but its not a permanent thing...just enough to give me a boost until I am ready for solid food again, then I shall go back to my low sodium, low carb, high(er) protein regime.

I'm there. Ive settled on the fact that the majority of my weight that is left just needs to be surgically removed...I have a lot of skin. Gross, I know...but its the truth. Researching surgeons and hopefully I will get the answers I need within the next few weeks to get the ball rolling and take care of this mess.
Until then, I am Champion Nutrition Pure Whey Stack Girl.

Hoo-ah!

Its one of those nights. I ordered pizza for the family, and I'm taking a time out to maintain my sanity and eating a piece or two. Not spending a day eating garbage, just this, right now. Im quitting smoking right now, so I just need this crappy little vice. Like my excuses?

My dad lent me his digital scale. I used it. I am almost 10 lbs heavier than I thought. I want to die.

The fact that I ate some garbage at my parent's Superbowl party isn't doing much to comfort me, either. I keep blaming my weakness, even though I really didn't eat much. 99% of what I ate was low carb. I did eat a few Triscuits and 2 Lil' Smokies wrapped in biscuits. But I blame moments like these for my ultimate failure.

Oh well, back on the hobby horse.

Here I go, don't I look like I am having FUN???

At that point...

So, yeah...I have been working really hard and doing uber well with everything...but the scale has yet to move. My body seems thinner, I've gotten a little bit bonier (yay!) but that stupid scale won't move. WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY???!!!

This is the point where I usually eat garbage because in my head, its not working. Even though I feel like it is, the scale isn't reflecting it, and I am NOT happy. Maybe there is something wrong with my stupid cheap scale. Will buy a new one this weekend.

I am so not going to eat crap as a result. This is what kept me from losing anything significant pre-surgery. That and there are temptations everywhere! Super Bowl this weekend, as well as the big UFC fight on Saturday night. I will not bend to the temptation of goodies. I will sit in the corner with my grilled chicken and steamed vegetables and smile away. Because eventually, that fucking scale HAS to move!!!


GRRR!!!

Exercise...?

Got a small amount in today. Not as much as planned because of my stupid foot, but some regardless. 1/31/10:

Gazelle: 30 min
Bike: 20 min

2/1/10:

Gazelle: 30 min
Bike: 30 min

Don't hate!

I'm trying to understand why it is that restaurants make you feel like shit when you try and order healthy.
Honestly, I am so NOT one of these people who expect special treatment, nor do I try and make them prepare me something not on the menu, or custom-tailor anything to my needs. Usually what I will do is pick something that looks the closest to what I will allow myself to have, and then go from there.

My usual fare is a large glass of ice water w/ lemon (as Alison puts it, 'poor man's lemonade'), a salad of some sort with vinegar and Splenda, (not hard to accomplish as most restaurants carry oil and vinegar for salads) and then an entree involving a sort of steamed veggie and grilled meat. MOST restaurants carry things like this.
So why do I get dirty looks when I order these things?
Am I the only person on earth trying to eat healthy? Are the vials of vinegar really high up on a shelf?
I'm tired of the discrimination. Grrrr.

Another recipe

Awesome Turkey Burgers

1 lb ground turkey
1 small onion, finely chopped
2 Tbsp minced garlic
2 Tbsp garlic powder
2 Tbsp onion powder
1/2 tsp chili powder
2 Tbsp chipotle flavored Tabasco sauce (plus a bit more to to top burgers with upon grilling)
1 capful garlic and herb Mrs. Dash
3 Tbsp unsalted butter, cut into little pieces

Combine all ingredients in a large mixing bowl, shape into about 6 patties. Throw onto Foreman (or whatever kind of) grill, add a few drops of Chipotle Tabasco sauce to the top of each burger, and cook for about 6 minutes.




Buffalo Chicken

3-4 boneless skinless chicken breasts
garlic powder to taste
1 stick of unsalted butter or margarine
1/2 cup Franks Red Hot (more or less to taste)

Season chicken with garlic powder. Cook on Foreman grill until done. Cut chicken up into bite sized pieces.

In a smaller tupperware container, melt 1 stick of butter. Add Red Hot
and stir, add more Red Hot until desired heat and consistency of sauce is reached. Add diced chicken to sauce, seal tupperware container and shake to coat. Nummies!

Lets get physical.

So I am going to start keeping a log on here of the exercise I do. Not for any other reason than to record what I am accomplishing. I refuse to track what I am eating, thats just too Weight Watchers of me to do.

So, yesterday, heres what I did. Not much, but something.

Gazelle: 45 min
Bike pedals: 1/2 hour* (could have been more, I underestimate)

So I am almost determined I am going to start posting vlogs here shortly. But only on this site, and only once a week. I always make up my food for the week on Sundays, so that may be my day of choice to post them.

***on a side note, a friend on here told me she was having issues leaving a comment on my blog. If you are having trouble, drop me a line, on Facebook or email...my email is :
linlin1@cbgb.net*****

Idea!

So, I was chewing on an idea...what do you all think about my doing a video blog? I was considering doing one, once a week, during which I would make one recipe demo. Would you all watch? Comment? Spread the word? Feedback, please!

Here we are, more of my favorite recipes, kids. They seem simple but trust me, they do a world of good.

Lemon Pepper Fish

4 tilapia filets
3 Tbsp margarine
Mrs. Dash Lemon Pepper seasoning
1/3 cup lemon juice
No Salt to taste

Heat margarine in skillet until melted, add lemon juice. Place tilapia filets in skillet, shake Mrs. Dash on top. Brown and cook through on each side, adding Mrs. Dash to taste. Cook through until flaky. Add No Salt to taste.


Veggie Omelette

4 egg whites
No Salt to taste
1/4 cup chopped onion, tomato, green and red pepper, and chopped fresh spinach
Pam

Spray pan, whisk egg whites with No Salt until smooth. Heat pan to medium. Make as any omelette, adding veggies after cooking egg through on one side. Fold in half, cover and turn off heat, let sit for about 3 min.

More recipes...that I just thought of.

I have been trying to think of the things I like to make that involve this type of cooking...its not easy to make something low carb, low sugar, low salt yet something that tastes good.
Here is my recipe for Ohio chili. Its a sweeter chili, no beans, but of course with this or any other recipe I post, you can vary it up however you want.

Just Chili

• 2 lbs ground turkey
• 1 whole white onion, chopped
• 2 Tbsp minced garlic
• 1 whole green pepper, chopped
• 1 whole red pepper, chopped
• 2 14.5 cans NSA diced tomatoes
• 1 cup water
  
• 1 Tbsp oregano
• 2 Tbsp cumin
• 2 Tbsp garlic powder
• 2 Tbsp onion powder
  
• 1 Tbsp black pepper
• 1 tsp cayenne pepper
• 1 cup Splenda

In a large pot brown peppers, garlic and onions. Add ground turkey, brown, add water, tomatoes, seasonings and Splenda. Simmer on medium heat for 2-3 hours.


All-You-Can-Eat Coleslaw

• 1/2 head green cabbage
• 1/2 cup apple cider vinegar
• 4 packets Sweet n Low
• 4 packets Splenda
• 1 tsp white pepper
  
• "No Salt" to taste

Shred cabbage in a coleslaw like manner. Mix other ingredients together and pour over cabbage. Mix thoroughly. Chill for 1 hour, eat as much as you want...just be prepared for the consequences. Its cabbage, people.

1 idea, and 2 recipes...

Ok...
...so I got this idea, and I think I am going to go for it.
I think I am going to write a cookbook. A diet cookbook. But, one that can apply to all diets. No matter if you are doing low carb, Weight Watchers, low salt, low cholesterol, low fat, whatever.
What do you all think?


So, I decided to write 2 of my favorite recipes here for review...please, make them and let me know what you think, comments, questions, etc...


First recipe,

OatMEAL Muffins.

These are my favorites. They are really good and serve 2 purposes--one, you get your protein, carb and fruit all in one serving. 2, they are easy to keep and great on the go. 3, you can make a huge batch and freeze them for when you will need them. Yum!

• 12 egg whites
• 3 1/2 cups quick cooking oatmeal
• 15 packets Splenda
• 2 Tbsp cinnamon
• 2 tsp vanilla
  
• 1/2 cup unsweetened chunky applesauce
• 1/2 tsp baking powder

Preheat oven to 360*.
Beat egg whites until frothy, but not stiff. Fold in the rest of the ingredients, mix.
Divide with 1/3 measuring cup into a 12 pc. muffin pan lined with paper muffin cups.
Sprinkle tops with Splenda and cinnamon. Bake for 15 min. Divide 2 per ziploc bag, freeze as needed.



Italian Chicken

• 1-14.5 oz can NSA diced tomatoes
• 3 italian chicken breasts** fully cooked and cut up
• 1 1/2 Tbsp minced garlic
• 3 Tbsp oil
• 1/3 cup Splenda
• 2 cups diced red, green peppers and onion
• 1/2 cup water
  

Seasoning Mix:
3 Tbsp garlic powder
2 Tbsp onion powder
1 tsp "No Salt"
1 Tbsp Italian seasoning
2 Tbsp black pepper
Mrs. Dash Garlic and Herb to taste


**Cook chicken breasts on Foreman grill with garlic powder and Garlic and Herb Mrs. Dash**

In a large frying pan, heat garlic, oil, onions, peppers and 1/2 seasoning mix on medium high heat
until garlic is slightly browned. Add chicken and water, cover and simmer on low for 10 minutes. Add diced tomatoes, Splenda and rest of seasoning mix, cover and simmer 10 minutes. Serve over brown rice.

RESTAURANT HELL

I did it! I went to that stupid restaurant and ordered grilled tilapia, and steamed broccoli, with a side salad. It was pretty good once I dumped tabasco on it.

This is what I eat.

*note: I am very ritualistic with my eating habits, and dislike criticism of such, so if you think I'm crazy, so is your mom.
Also, this schedule is based on the fact that I work a 3-midnight shift, so my times are probably way off from anyone elses. But its what works for me.

Breakfast--usually around 11:30 am, as I never eat before 10am as a habit.
Breakfast: 1 cup oatmeal with Splenda
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Mid Morning Snack--around 1:45pm
MMS: 1 boneless, skinless chicken breast with a drizzle of Frank's Red Hot
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Lunch--about 4:00 pm
Lunch: 1 small macintosh apple and 2 small ground turkey burgers
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Mid Afternoon Snack--About 6:45 pm
MAS: 1 grilled chicken breast cut up on 1 cup of salad greens with my special vinagrette dressing...basically apple cider vinegar mixed with sweet and low...its a yummy sweet and sour thing.
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Dinner-- 9pm-ish
Dinner: 2 tilapia fillets, 1 Green Giant steam in bag vegetable mixture, 1/2 cup brown rice
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** I always have an extra apple on hand at work in case my blood sugar drops or I am craving something to snack on in between dinner and going home for the night.

Evening Snack--optional, but I usually do eat it.

ES: Egg white omlette with cut up green and red peppers, tomato and onion.
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So thats pretty much what I do in a day that I am eating right. I tweak it by maintaining these rules for myself:
**I can have all the protein I want, so if I want to eat one chicken breast or 3, its MY choice.
**I cut out most sodium. Anything reading on a food label as being over 250 mg of sodium per serving I automatically put back. I use No Salt instead of real salt. I use Mrs. Dash to cook with.
**I cut out dairy. Im intolerant, anyway. I save it as a restaurant treat.
**I try to not use condiments, but honestly, I am a condiment JUNKIE!!! So I try to avoid the bad ones. I rely a lot on Walden Farms. I make a lot of my own. Its worth it.
**I make sure I drink all my water.
**I prepare most of my food ahead of time.
**I try to keep everything sugar free. I know sugar free does not mean carb free, but even when having a treat at Starbucks, I go for the sugar free options now. The guilt of full fat, carbs and sugar are what cause me to spiral into failure.
**I keep my carbs at a minimum. I do not count them, nor do I fret about them, but use them as a general rule of thumb when purchasing, as I do with my sodium and caloric consideration.


Thats it, thats what I do.

GIMME THAT, IT'S MINE!

Isn't it AMAZING how good food looks when you cannot have it, no matter what it is? I hate Gefilte Fish. Would rather gag than eat it. But if I started an eating plan and someone told me, "You can have all the cake and ice cream you want, but NO GEFILTE FISH!", I would instantly crave it. I am a creature of curiosity. And a creature of rebellious nature. I want what I cannot have. And do not want what I can. Maybe thats what makes it so easy to START eating healthy. Are we testing ourselves, making triple dog dares in our minds, knowing subconsciously we will cave the moment the slightest bad thing is within 5 miles of us? Probably. Whether you can admit to it or not, we all want what we can't have. Cake, a new car, a Gucci handbag, sanity, size 4 jeans...its always within grasp...but we suddenly have no arms. In all my time of diets, eating plans, yadda yaddas, one thing I have always fallen victim to is the whole "I blew it, lets eat crap for a month" pitfall. I almost fell for it tonight. It was a night of inconvenience, a night of chaos, and what I really needed was an easy way out for dinner. Honestly, I was just really tired and didn't feel like fooling around in the kitchen. So, I ended up eating a few boneless wings (no sauce) from Lee's. My GOD they are good. Its not like the old days when I would eat an entire bucket myself. I had maybe 3 or 4. Tops. I ate healthy all day except for that, and got 2 liters of water in. Yeah, not my normal 3, but I caved and drank a Diet A&W with my chicken. We all have our off nights. (Oh yeah, and I had 3 Swedish Fish candies that Abby forced me to eat. At least I am honest.) But as I was saying, I am not taking this and running with it, consenting to eat pizza tomorrow night, followed by ice cream, snacks, etc and then spending a month eating crap from the vending machines at work. Thats where my problem is, the whole convenience thing. That, and who doesn't love eating fast food or restaurant food? You feel like royalty, being waited on. Everyone loves that 'you will do as I say and bring me what I want' feeling we have when out somewhere. I am not hopeless, but I know that I will always view eating out as a special occasion, a celebration, and an excuse to eat whatever the hell I want, no matter how well I have been doing. And I am sorry, Mr. Thurmond, but I am NOT about to flip out on some poor waiter about how much sodium they use in their grilled fish. And no, I will NOT squeeze a lemon on it. Since I have lost the majority of my weight and what I have left is mostly excess and skin, here is what I am doing until I hit my magical number...and will stay on in order to maintain. I have upped my protein to 130 oz per day. I spread that out into small meals, about 2-3 hours apart. Every other "feeding" as I call it, I eat a serving of vegetables. The other meals I eat a small serving of healthy carbs. (see sample menu, for shits and giggles...you know, like you would actually do it, lol) I also get at LEAST 100 oz of water in per day as a ground rule. Since I started this I have gotten myself up to 3 liters, more or less, per day. What about the pit falls? Here is what I am going to do. Like George Costanza--chicken salad, do the opposite of everything you have every done, and maybe it will work. If I am going out, I'm not going to plan, fret, freak out, or ruin my time out with bothering the waitstaff. I get there and look at the menu, and decide what looks good and what suits me that moment. If I feel like salmon and a salad, thats what I'll get. If I feel like an entire pizza to myself, I'll freaking get it. No stress. (Did you know stress makes you GAIN weight? It does. Look it up.) Point is, once I leave that resturant, bar, whatever, I am still me, and I'm not going to freak over what happens next. I need to not freak out over it. I'm missing life's finer moments because of this nonsense.

Its technically tomorrow...

All day I have been chewing on random blog thoughts in my head, trying to
think of clever little bursts of amusing knowledge that people will actually like.
So I ran through my day and now that it is pretty much over, I can pour them all out onto you people.
Isn't that what blogging is for?


So here it is, the many phases of me, trying to eat right...aka, Why Diets Never Worked (or work) for Me.

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Phase 1: The excuses
Okay, so several things generally go through my mind when I decide I've eaten enough crap...and although I know the time is right, I make up little lists of excuses in my head why I just can't do what I need to do yet, why it needs to be put off just a little longer: we can't afford the proper, nutritious food that I need...I don't have time to prepare...there is a big holiday coming up....there are MANY big holidays coming up...there is a carry in at work...my parents are taking me out to eat tomorrow...my mom is making dinner...I could go on and on. They are all from lists I've had all my life. And the biggest factor in all of them is, they all start off in my head with the sentence: "Might as well eat whatever I want right now...(fill in any statement above)".

Phase 2: The Empty Reward
So all excuses aside, once I am out of that phase, I move into the first leg--reward phase. This is what usually hits me on my first pay day after I start eating right. Money in the bank to me automatically means oooh, lets order pizza. And it works out well, because at this point I have been dieting for a bit and those miniscule water pounds have come off, making me feel skinnier...and my body reacts by talking itself into a "reward".
Now, there are those of you who can reward yourselves like a normal person and not go off the deep end. But then there is me, who looks at a reward like hey, I'm practically anorexic, I need to eat this entire cheesecake or I might die of malnutrition! Plus I've been doing really good, so this won't count.

Phase 3: I actually like to exercise.
No, really, I do. I always have, when physically capable. Once I get my butt moving I become somewhat addicted, and it becomes a good habit. Problem is, I have quite the rebellious side, and once it sees me adapting to a new routine, those voices start to talk me back in to spending the day in bed and ignoring my car keys to go to the gym. I put it off and justify it by talking myself into doing an at-home video. Wrong again. But it just feels so bloody GOOD to not do ANYTHING.
Again, some of you can do this and not make a mess of things. After all, your body needs days to recharge...again, my problem is, I get used to the routine of doing nothing...that leads to said issues above, and into a huge snowball of failure.

Phase 4: The Date
Maybe you are married, dating, single, whatever. We all usually get to go on dates once in a blue moon. I don't exactly mean lovey dates, but even a girls night out is miserable when you feel like dog doo. You're tired, bloated, have been eating crap all day, then go out to dinner with the girls or whoever and eat more crap (of course you are the one trying to talk everyone else into kicking their diets for one night, just so you can reaffirm your self destruction) Finally you end up at a bar where you just want to hide in a corner and play with your phone until you can go home and go to the bathroom, take off these tight, wretched clothes that looked so hot before you ate deep fried garbage, and go to bed. Of course you won't, you'll put on PJ bottoms and watch Sex and the City and eat the last of the ice cream. At the bar everyone looks like they are having fun, everyone looks better then you, and NO ONE will make eye contact. Miserable.

Phase 5: The Big Unplanned Event
Did you ever plan a diet to coincide several months before a BIG event where just EVERYONE will be? Yeah, me too. Then I've been to those big events that are always last minute, and no matter how much you don't eat or work out in the two days notice you have, and even if you actually feel great going there, you will always have the elusive photo taken during said event and when its posted online for the whole world to see, the first words out of your mouth will always be "Oh....my....god." And of course, this is one of those events where every person you have ever dated, hated, slept with and wished dead will be.


Phase 6: The Significant Other
I admit this one may just be me and a few select others who truly hate their own bodies...for those of you who are legally sane, I applaud you. But heres a peek into my world, when I have spent a month or two in line at the chinese buffet.
This is also what I like to refer to as 'the last straw', and is usually what gets my butt into gear. If I could bottle this feeling and dispell it any time I looked at a donut, I wouldn't have the problems I have.
So, after I have been neglecting myself and just eating whatever isn't nailed down, I get into that happy food mood where I dont quite notice at first, but then one day Im a slushy, miserable person...and of course thats the day when my boyfriend decides he wants to be sappy and touchy and stuff. As much as I love him, my stomach physically turns if I feel fat and gross. As much as I try to turn off this feeling and just be with him, it always ends up in me avoiding all contact-I call it my Happy Fun Ball mood...I do not want to be touched, inhaled or looked at. And of course he takes offense at this, thinking I want nothing to do with him. Again, the literal snowball.

Phase 8: The Commitment
So I get geared up and gung ho. This is it. No more feeling like hammered trash. I get almost giddy. That feeling of having something to plan, look forward to, etc. I love that first diet feeling, its almost like a new boyfriend. It treats you right, it holds your hand, it kisses you on the cheek, gives you whatever you want. And the whole time you're hoping it doesn't turn into the slob you were with last time. Ugh, never going back to THAT one. (Even though you may go back for a quickie, just to remind yourself why you will never fully go back)
I usually at this point begin to make rules for myself to follow. Iron-clad, seemingly foolproof rules that I am sure will make it impossible to fail. They usually work the opposite.

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So...why these phases? Why this full circle of torture? Even when you have had WLS and lost over 200 lbs, it still doesn't go away. I remember saying to myself when shopping with a skinnier friend prior to surgery, boy, if I was her size, I would wear this kind of stuff all the time and be sooooo happy. It just so happens I am technically much smaller than that friend now, but still don't wear those things, still do not feel it, and am not as happy as I thought I would be. I wish I could let it go.

But enough, I did NOT invent this blog to whine and nothing else. I made it so I could help others, because I have done EVERYTHING there is to lose weight, including having my insides arranged. And because I look at people doing the wrong thing and I just want to grab them and smack them and have them listen to me. And if I can prevent one person from going way into the deep end and having to surgically correct themselves, like I did, it'll be worth it.

Baby steps. Honestly, I have never done things this way, its just not in my nature, but it seems to appeal to many. If it works well, great. If it doesn't, don't do it, or customize it to where it does. The point is to feel better.


So here it is, Mr. Tip...

Water.


Yes, Water. H2O. Stop cringeing.


We've all heard it. And deep down, we know it. Its just no fun. Besides, most of us are hooked on this poison called aspartame. I know I am.
Water is about as much fun as watching grass grow. Its not pretty or fizzy and it can be expensive if you are picky like me and refuse to drink out of a tap. But really, who are we fooling? Water is needed.

So the first step, albeit challenge is to stop drinking crap, replace it with water.
Keep eating pizza. Just drink water with it. No soda, no DIET soda, no juice, but coffee and tea are okay once or twice a day, because they are virtually water.

Many people will argue this point, because of so much misinformation out there. Some doctors/diets tell you 8 glasses of water per day. Thats 64 oz. Some say 100 oz per day. Some say drink the ounce equivalent of your weight. Well obviously most of us aren't going to do that. 100 oz is a nice round number to work up to. Me personally, I drink 3 liters of water per day. I drink Fiji water. 2 of the big 1.5 liter bottles per day, to be exact. Sometimes less, sometimes a tad more. I weened myself from the other stuff. Its a great step. Start out slow at 64 oz and then work your way up to 100. However you want to do it.

Simple step, I know...but trust me, a crucial one.




<<--Molly Lolly-->>

Don't eat the cake, it will eat YOU!

Well, here it is...

my first blog.

I always swore I would never, ever write a blog. Because it just
sounds silly. But alas, I have jumped on the bandwagon...I have too many jumbled
thoughts in my head to keep bottled up, and too many questions
being asked by friends who are looking for advice. I also have too
many friends with even better advice that doesn't apply to me,
that may be of great use to another. So, I have created this, my blog,
"When Food Attacks."

Judge not lest ye be judged.

I am 32 years old. I struggled with obesity all of my life. I finally had to have weight loss surgery (wls), November of 2007. Most people hear this and consent to groan, look away, mumble under their breath...because, you know (sarcasm alert) WHEN YOU HAVE WLS, YOU WAKE UP SKINNY.


Yeah.

It has taken me 2 years to get where I am. I work very hard. I have been working very hard. I will continue to work very hard. Its not a free ride. And I am still not done.

All that aside, I still have to watch what I eat, exercise, maintain, and get rid of these last 15-20 lbs. In doing this I have found most of the same rules apply for me as they do most people, but most people are too busy with the latest fad to work on whats really going to help them. I guess that as a result of my surgery, I can relay that fads are NOT going to help me. Green tea does nothing. Hoodia is like eating a Tic Tac. Don't even get me started on this Acai crap.

So within these blog pages I will post (or try to post) one blog a day with an interesting thing that I have learned on my own or through a friend who is struggling to buy that black bikini for summer.

Molly Lolly--January 17, 2010