Spending a little time on hiatus...my body, bottom line, isn't getting enough iron and protein to maintain. I ordered my favorite protein shakes online, and am waiting for them to arrive so I can start my liquid, all protein shake diet. I know this sounds nuts...but its not a permanent thing...just enough to give me a boost until I am ready for solid food again, then I shall go back to my low sodium, low carb, high(er) protein regime.

I'm there. Ive settled on the fact that the majority of my weight that is left just needs to be surgically removed...I have a lot of skin. Gross, I know...but its the truth. Researching surgeons and hopefully I will get the answers I need within the next few weeks to get the ball rolling and take care of this mess.
Until then, I am Champion Nutrition Pure Whey Stack Girl.

Hoo-ah!

Its one of those nights. I ordered pizza for the family, and I'm taking a time out to maintain my sanity and eating a piece or two. Not spending a day eating garbage, just this, right now. Im quitting smoking right now, so I just need this crappy little vice. Like my excuses?

My dad lent me his digital scale. I used it. I am almost 10 lbs heavier than I thought. I want to die.

The fact that I ate some garbage at my parent's Superbowl party isn't doing much to comfort me, either. I keep blaming my weakness, even though I really didn't eat much. 99% of what I ate was low carb. I did eat a few Triscuits and 2 Lil' Smokies wrapped in biscuits. But I blame moments like these for my ultimate failure.

Oh well, back on the hobby horse.

Here I go, don't I look like I am having FUN???

At that point...

So, yeah...I have been working really hard and doing uber well with everything...but the scale has yet to move. My body seems thinner, I've gotten a little bit bonier (yay!) but that stupid scale won't move. WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY???!!!

This is the point where I usually eat garbage because in my head, its not working. Even though I feel like it is, the scale isn't reflecting it, and I am NOT happy. Maybe there is something wrong with my stupid cheap scale. Will buy a new one this weekend.

I am so not going to eat crap as a result. This is what kept me from losing anything significant pre-surgery. That and there are temptations everywhere! Super Bowl this weekend, as well as the big UFC fight on Saturday night. I will not bend to the temptation of goodies. I will sit in the corner with my grilled chicken and steamed vegetables and smile away. Because eventually, that fucking scale HAS to move!!!


GRRR!!!

Exercise...?

Got a small amount in today. Not as much as planned because of my stupid foot, but some regardless. 1/31/10:

Gazelle: 30 min
Bike: 20 min

2/1/10:

Gazelle: 30 min
Bike: 30 min